Lately I've been studying my natal chart, looking for guidance for how to get un-stuck and take the next step on my path. The voice inside my head is calling me a flake. ;-> But to be quite honest, I just wasn't getting the insights I needed elsewhere. When I was a Christian, the prevailing attitude was, "oh, you're on this earth to love God and serve Him." That's just too miscellaneous, too vulnerable to the manipulation of others. (The voice inside my head is saying, "ya think???") Part of my experience is that aside from being reared fundamentalist and having to go to Bob Jones for years, I also belonged to a "Bible-based cult" for 5 years, so I have learned quite well and quite unintentionally about how people can be manipulated through religion.
I've also read TONS of self-help books, both secular and spiritual... I've retained a good bit of what I learned from those books, but have had some trouble trying to make those lessons into something very personal and individual.
Here's some of what I've discovered.
My moon sign is Scorpio. This brings a lot of intensity and passion to my life, but at the same time I view feelings as a vulnerability and try to hide them. I can also be one to hold a grudge. I'm pretty sensitive to other peoples' moods and I typically do pick up a lot of nonverbal cues going on in the environment. While my Libra sun makes me sociable, friendly, and diplomatic, I also need my private time so I can relax and recharge periodically after all my people-dealings. I think (and I've recognized this for a long time) that for me, sex is as much a spiritual experience as it is a physical experience.
My Scorpio moon resides in the 6th house on my chart, which has much to do with physical health and well-being. If I'm struggling with problems, I think I tend to "internalize" them to such a degree that they become physical ailments. For example, I was diagnosed with IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) about a year ago, after struggling with those symptoms for about 3 years before that. I've got the IBS pretty much under control now, as long as I watch my diet and take a soluble fiber supplement a couple times a day. I tend to hold tension in my neck, shoulders, and upper back (though, being "overly endowed" doesn't help that, either ;-> I've seen a breast reduction in my future for some time now). I'm also a pretty good bellweather--when the barometric pressure drops, my head and joints tend to get achy.
The 6th house, where my moon is, also means I put a lot of stock in what and how I do at my job, about helping others, and about how I respond to "the call of duty." I like my job, so job stress is usually only a minor/temporary issue, thankfully. This week has been bad, though, because my job suddenly "expanded" when our management let a couple of part-timers go. Next week will be better, I'm sure. It's just been a matter of getting systems in place this week to handle the new responsibilities, and I'm feeling pretty good about what I've been able to accomplish in that regard. But in a larger sense, I need to find work that will let me use my individual gifts to their highest potential. That's a more long-term goal of mine.
I've done a LOT of reading about what it means to have a Scorpio moon, but I think this author sums it up best:
... themes and preoccupations of the Scorpio Moon: secrets, mysteries, severity, psychology, power, control, passion, revenge, obsession, loyalty, sex, depth of feeling, ethics, spirituality, solitude, death. No, the Scorpio moon is surely not made of green cheese, but rather some of the most powerful facets of human existence. This lunar native must learn to embrace the reality of his or her own emotions as opposed to running or hiding from them. If the Scorpio Moon person can navigate his or her own spirit to a higher and more exalted place, he will recognize the potential for complete and total happiness that lies within him[her]self... and the transformation will be powerful for certain. -- copyright 2005, Dana Giolitto