Things are kind of weird right now... my husband and I are separating after 8 years of marriage (9 years together). I guess I'll be having more time to post soon... perhaps at the first of the year (2008). There are lots of things I'd like to share. :-)
First things first. Before I met the dragonfly, I received a message and a talisman from Spirit during a guided meditation I was doing with my teacher, Elf, and Crowmoon (Crowmoon is a student of Elf's, just as I am... she's great!)
I was going through the meditation and while it was going well, I guess, I had to keep "revising" things... I wasn't imagining things big enough! Toward the end of the meditation we were guided to sit at a stone altar and were waiting for something to be given to us--a gift, or a message, etc. I wasn't really expecting anything, but the altar materialized a large, pale pink heart made of some kind of stone. When the heart appeared, the message was communicated to me, "you are love." I didn't quite get it at first--I repeated to the altar, "I am loved?" The altar said, "yes, you are, but the message is 'you ARE love'." Which I took to mean that I myself am an embodiment of love. Now, people who know me (and not many do know me, my Scorpio moon works to keep me pretty private, so a lot of times its an effort to let others in), know that I'm really quite a "Air" person--very much someone who depends on the intellect. Obviously, I'm being taken in another direction now, a direction where my emotions are going to play a much bigger part in who I am going forward.
It took some searching, but I was able to find exactly what the altar gave me. It's a 3" x 3" rose quartz heart. I bought one and it now resides on my altar. I use it for meditation and such.
After we all shared what we learned in the guided meditation, we decided to embark upon a Spirit (shamanic) journey. More about that next time. This stone heart actually plays a part in the journey, too!
P.S.: This is the guided meditation CD we were using:
http://www.brainsync.com/product.asp?specific=158
What a beautiful heart. I have similar rose quartz one that I gave to my Mum. Since she died last year I have it back and it gives me a warm connection to her.
JanWishing you luck in your new life. I went through divorce nearly 10 years ago, and no matter how painful the letting go was, it was worth it for the growth in myself.
Love and Peace
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